Not Exactly Sure

Well Everyone, here i am..and I'm not sure what im doing here, but im here. Right now I'm not the most stable person to be hanging out with or maybe even talking to I'm not sure..but i love the face that you people are reading this if in fact that you are..but maybe your not? maybe your just some person from another universe which is totally awesome..

Someone asked me what love was today, and I couldn't answer it...I know that maybe i should have been able to but i couldn't. Because i Don't know what love is..Is love just a bunch of emotions that our bodies use to let us make complete asses of our self.? hmmm...Or maybe its a chemical reaction in the brain that makes us think that we are in love when really were not?..or maybe its a feeling soo strong that makes us do stupid and crazy stuff and never look back and say i regreted that point in my life...Love is out there people you just have to find it and dont come to me for any help.

I've found something that makes life really worth living and living well.. You wanna know what it is, I never thought in a million years i would be saying this, but being a memeber of an EMS company, you know why , because we do actually save lives, and I always thought i would never be in the back of an ambulance taking a heart attack patient in, and i always told my self that i wouldn't be..but the very first time i got in to the back of an ambulance and had my first call in, i fell in love with Emergency Medical Services..yes i know....its hard to believe...i  was always the one that called the volunteer firefighters "fire fags" but they really aren't because who would spend ever waking moment at a firehouse? volunteers..and maybe i was just being stupid, but then i realized that being an EMT could be great..that's why i'm going to start ttaking classes to be an emt...and they start this tuesday, and im scared shitless but that's ok...I'll pass.:)

I know that this isn't the shortest Journal Entry you have read and i know its not the longest, but since i seem to just keep ramblin on i'm just going to end it here..and I'll keep posting it when ever i feel like it:) peace out.